Day 4.

Today I am grateful for leftovers. Weird- I hate leftovers. But I am grateful that on days like today when I am at work until 8 o'clock, I can come home and have some delicious food within minutes! Haha

Grateful.

While I am feeling so discouraged, I decided I need to be grateful instead. So here I am hopping on the band wagon and listing what I am grateful for till Thanksgiving!

DAY 1:

I am SO very grateful for my best friend. This girl is incredible. Even though we aren't even in the same state anymore, she never fails to make me laugh and always knows just what to say to make me feel better. She is the best friend that anybody could ever have. Living with her was by far the best year of my life. I miss staying up till 4 in the morning with her telling jokes that weren't funny, but laughing endlessly all night anyway. I can't wait to give her the biggest hug ever one year from TODAY!

DAY 2:

These folks. Man, they are amazing! I have the best parents in the whole world! I am so grateful for the constant love and support I get from them. I am grateful that I can call mom at 12 o'clock, after she is already asleep and that she will listen to me while I cry. I am grateful for dad and that he always carries my laundry to my car for me. I love more than anything that I can go home to them every single week and laugh with them all night. I am grateful that they listen to me as I chat for hours on end. I am grateful that they love me and care about me so much!!

DAY 3:

This one is hard. But I truly am very grateful for this boy. Even though my heart is still completely broken, I can't help but think of all the good that came from my relationship with him. The thing I am most grateful for is that he showed me EXACTLY how I want and know I deserve to be treated. I am grateful for the endless happiness that I felt around him, and for how much he truly did care about me. 

Missing.

It's been one week today, and my heart still hurts just as bad. I feel like everything I do reminds me of him. I wish so badly this boy was still a huge part of my life. When does it get easier?

heartbreak is real.

Labor day was a day I'll never forget. Six and a half weeks ago, I met the most incredible man. The minute I saw him, I knew he would be someone special to me. He was someone that cared about me like I've never been cared for. He made me so incredibly happy and made me want to be a better person everyday. It was the best feeling of my life to be treated the way he treated me. I never thought I could be so crazy about someone in such short time. I never thought I could be as happy as I was. He was perfect in every way- I felt that it was almost too good to be true. I cherish every single second I ever spent with him, as those moments are now just memories.. Dating him was the best 5 1/2 weeks of my life without a doubt. My heart is shattered tonight. Completely broken into a million pieces. I didn't know I could feel like this. I know without a doubt that God's timing is perfect. I know that he came into my life exactly when I needed him- to show me what it felt like to really be loved and to show me how it feels to be treated how I have always felt I deserve. My heart hurts like it has never hurt before- so I just ask one favor from all of you... please say an extra prayer for me. I need it more than anything. 

Gratefulness

Today, words cannot even express how grateful I am feeling for every single one of these people! I have THE best family and friends ever!!!

Carriage Cove

A few weeks before school started, I felt like nothing was going my way. I was on the wait list for my apartment for months and was told I wouldn't get in, all my classes for school got dropped, and I didn't really have friends. I was feeling bad for myself. I didn't want to move out anymore and kept putting it off. I just wanted to stay home forever, but I am so glad I didn't! (although I do miss my ma and pa... Bella too :) Moving out was the best thing I could have done. This semester has been so wonderful. I made some wonderful new friends in my classes, I am feeling very motivated (which is totally weird for me. ha!) and have good grades so far!! The day I moved into my apartment I met this wonderful boy and he makes me so happy! I have hung out with him every single day since I met him. He treats me like I have always dreamed of being treated and puts my happiness before his. True that I only met him two weeks ago, but he has made a good impression! Plus he is really cute :) I kind of like him a lot!!

And- he is in my FHE family... what are the odds of that? Things could not be going any better right now.

Life is good!

Life is incredible right now. Seriously so great. I never thought ending a relationship would be the greatest thing I could have happen right now. When I think of relationships coming to an end, I think of heart break and sadness, but I couldn't be happier. I didn't want it to happen, but now that is has, it has been the best thing ever! I seriously am so blessed, it's crazy! I have the best family and friends ever that look out for me constantly! 

I went on some of the most amazing blind dates this last week and had my eyes opened to some incredible guys that are out there! On Tuesday last week I went out with one of the nicest guys! We doubled with one of his mission companions.  We made cookies and delivered them to all the local fire departments to say thanks for their service! He opened the car door for me at every fire station, and was so sweet! I had so much fun, have been talking to him lots and look forward to the next date :) Isn't he a cutie?

Tuesday afternoon when I went to the bank, this sweet girl that I see at the bank every week told me we were going on a double date Saturday! I was nervous and excited all at the same time! This boy that she told me I would be going out with seemed incredible. Every story she told me showed how much respect he has, and how he truly is a gentleman. She told me that she had talked to him about it and said she would give me the details, but he insisted on calling me himself, that that's the way "real men" do it! I loved it! On my way home from work that afternoon he called me and was so sweet. He lives about 45 minutes away, but insisted he pick me up, because we would be late and he didn't want me driving home! I couldn't wait to meet this kid in person! Saturday came and I was terrified! I didn't know a single person I was going with, but tried to just be myself. He called me and told me he was running late and felt absolutely terrible, so I told him I could me him somewhere and he reluctantly agreed. When I pulled up to where we were meeting, he got out of his car, opened the door of my car and introduced himself with a hug. He opened the door for me and we talked nonstop the whole way back to Springville. Once we got there we met up with his friends and family that we were going with and everyone was very welcoming. We started our drive up the canyon to property that his family owns. While we were waiting at one of the gates for his family that didn't have keys, he asked me if I minded if he call them to see where they were and how long we would be waiting. He felt terrible that he had to use his phone and call them. It's so nice to know that chivalry is not dead! This kid is an absolute gem :) Once we got up there, we made a fire, had s'mores and then the fun began! We had brought a couple different couches, a projector, and stereo. We set up a sheet on the side of his truck and watched a movie in the middle of the canyon on a projector! How fun is that? It was amazing. He was constantly checking on me to make sure I wasn't cold, or to make sure that I was doing okay. I loved it. I loved this kid! He really knows how to treat a girl and it was refreshing to be treated so well! 

Life is too amazing right now. That is all :)