Day 5.

Today, I am grateful for Christmas lights to make my room a little more festive! :) Last year, me and Shannon had these exact lights hanging in our room and we would turn them on every single night and listen to Christmas music together. These lights bring back the best memories and a smile to my face! I absolutely love Christmas time and I love when Christmas music finally comes on the radio! I love driving around the neighborhood looking at lights with mom and dad while eating a Little Caesar's pizza in the car! I can't wait for all these things this year! Tis the season! 

Day 4.

Today I am grateful for leftovers. Weird- I hate leftovers. But I am grateful that on days like today when I am at work until 8 o'clock, I can come home and have some delicious food within minutes! Haha

Grateful.

While I am feeling so discouraged, I decided I need to be grateful instead. So here I am hopping on the band wagon and listing what I am grateful for till Thanksgiving!

DAY 1:

I am SO very grateful for my best friend. This girl is incredible. Even though we aren't even in the same state anymore, she never fails to make me laugh and always knows just what to say to make me feel better. She is the best friend that anybody could ever have. Living with her was by far the best year of my life. I miss staying up till 4 in the morning with her telling jokes that weren't funny, but laughing endlessly all night anyway. I can't wait to give her the biggest hug ever one year from TODAY!

DAY 2:

These folks. Man, they are amazing! I have the best parents in the whole world! I am so grateful for the constant love and support I get from them. I am grateful that I can call mom at 12 o'clock, after she is already asleep and that she will listen to me while I cry. I am grateful for dad and that he always carries my laundry to my car for me. I love more than anything that I can go home to them every single week and laugh with them all night. I am grateful that they listen to me as I chat for hours on end. I am grateful that they love me and care about me so much!!

DAY 3:

This one is hard. But I truly am very grateful for this boy. Even though my heart is still completely broken, I can't help but think of all the good that came from my relationship with him. The thing I am most grateful for is that he showed me EXACTLY how I want and know I deserve to be treated. I am grateful for the endless happiness that I felt around him, and for how much he truly did care about me. 

Missing.

It's been one week today, and my heart still hurts just as bad. I feel like everything I do reminds me of him. I wish so badly this boy was still a huge part of my life. When does it get easier?

heartbreak is real.

Labor day was a day I'll never forget. Six and a half weeks ago, I met the most incredible man. The minute I saw him, I knew he would be someone special to me. He was someone that cared about me like I've never been cared for. He made me so incredibly happy and made me want to be a better person everyday. It was the best feeling of my life to be treated the way he treated me. I never thought I could be so crazy about someone in such short time. I never thought I could be as happy as I was. He was perfect in every way- I felt that it was almost too good to be true. I cherish every single second I ever spent with him, as those moments are now just memories.. Dating him was the best 5 1/2 weeks of my life without a doubt. My heart is shattered tonight. Completely broken into a million pieces. I didn't know I could feel like this. I know without a doubt that God's timing is perfect. I know that he came into my life exactly when I needed him- to show me what it felt like to really be loved and to show me how it feels to be treated how I have always felt I deserve. My heart hurts like it has never hurt before- so I just ask one favor from all of you... please say an extra prayer for me. I need it more than anything. 

Gratefulness

Today, words cannot even express how grateful I am feeling for every single one of these people! I have THE best family and friends ever!!!

Carriage Cove

A few weeks before school started, I felt like nothing was going my way. I was on the wait list for my apartment for months and was told I wouldn't get in, all my classes for school got dropped, and I didn't really have friends. I was feeling bad for myself. I didn't want to move out anymore and kept putting it off. I just wanted to stay home forever, but I am so glad I didn't! (although I do miss my ma and pa... Bella too :) Moving out was the best thing I could have done. This semester has been so wonderful. I made some wonderful new friends in my classes, I am feeling very motivated (which is totally weird for me. ha!) and have good grades so far!! The day I moved into my apartment I met this wonderful boy and he makes me so happy! I have hung out with him every single day since I met him. He treats me like I have always dreamed of being treated and puts my happiness before his. True that I only met him two weeks ago, but he has made a good impression! Plus he is really cute :) I kind of like him a lot!!

And- he is in my FHE family... what are the odds of that? Things could not be going any better right now.