Kali Lana

Well... the day has finally come and gone. Or week I should say. It was the hardest week of my life.. and it hasn't been any easier yet. It will get easier with time, but this sucks. I hate saying goodbye more than anything. And saying goodbye to my best friends and some of the people I love most is unbelievably hard. I'm lonely. Very very lonely. But I'll be okay. Only 113 more days. Everyone tells me absence makes the heart grow fonder, but absence sucks. Distance sucks. And having your best friends gone sucks too. Somedays I'm okay, but some days are really hard. It's hard to go from hanging out with these people everyday to not being able to see them or talk to them hardly at all anymore. Today my very best friend left the MTC! I was planning all along to go to the airport, but was told I would only be able to see her for 20 minutes or so and decided it wasn't worth it to get up at 4:30 for that when she would be busy calling family.  Come to find out, she was given the wrong information and sat at the airport for 5 hours... Oh how I wish I would have just gone up.  Mom got to see her and I could not have been more jealous. I miss the days of having these people around me.. I wish I could go back to what life was like a month ago... even two weeks ago. But I'm very grateful I have the family I do that watches out for me!